Blogging my life away

Today is Thursday, July 16th, 2009. Today I am starting this thing they call a blog. I am not sure yet how to do this so here it goes. I live on the East Coast. I have two children, (grown) and 3 grandchildren, no, i am not old. I am in my 40's. Well, not that old. I just had my last grand baby born 6 weeks ago today, she is perfect (of course). I am also married have been for 10 years/2ND marriage. things are not perfect, but what is. I don't work anymore, I worked all my life as a administrator for companies. I miss it so much. 2 years ago I found out that i had MEN 1, a genetic disease you are born with. Multiple Endocrine Nyoplasa. Multiply tumors in the pancreas, pituitary gland and the parathyroids. I have had a few operations for this already. I also have a terrible back problem and scoliosis. Bones spurs in my heels, hopefully Monday they can do something about that, i can't even walk on my right foot, it hurts so bad. I also have major depression disorder due to this crap in my life. and that's only the beginning. I am so unhappy sometimes that i just sit and stare in space and cry constantly. Today is Friday the 17th What a day. My son got out of the hospital today. He was in a hospital for anxiety and a few other problems. I am not sure what to do about him. He usually don't stay on his meds and that really causes a lot of problems. He got an apt. today, 145. a week he only gets 500.00 a month. that really don't add up. He was not thinking. But this is what he does. When he acts up it really causes problems with my husband and I. I know it shouldn't, but, for some reason it always does. Have to go now, will write more later. Thursday July 24. 2009 Hello world. Today and most of this week, i just can't get organized. Do you ever feel that way? I go from the computer to a puzzle to the computer. boring, boring. I heard from my son today, I hadn't heard from him all week. He did go off his meds. (he will probably end up in the hospital again) who knows. My daughter and her kids are great, except she is so tired from working and getting up with the baby and all. OMG, phone ringing and no one answers it, drive me crazy or what. anyways, I feel bad for her, she is a good girl/woman her and her boyfriend are doing good. which means i don't have to worry to much about her, as for her brother, that is another story all together.